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<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="stb-bold" style="font-weight: bold; font-family: 'nanum myoungjo', 바탕, batang, 바탕, MS Mincho, serif;">불안 속에서</span></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></div><div class="stb-block-outer"><table class="stb-block stb-cols-1" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="overflow:hidden;margin:0px auto;padding:0px;width:100%;max-width:630px;clear:both;line-height:1.7;border-width:0px;border: 0px;font-size:14px;border:0;box-sizing:border-box;" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td><table class="stb-cell-wrap" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align:center;font-size:0;"><table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="mso-table-lspace: 0pt; mso-table-rspace: 0pt;-ms-text-size-adjust: 100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;" align="left" width="100%">  <tbody><tr>    <td style="padding:15px 15px 15px 15px;;border:0;">      <table class="stb-partition" style="width:100%;height: 0;background: none;padding: 0px;border-top-width:1px;border-top-style:solid;border-top-color:#999999;margin:0 0;border-collapse:separate;"></table>    </td>  </tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></div><div class="stb-block-outer"><table class="stb-block stb-cols-1" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="overflow:hidden;margin:0px auto;padding:0px;width:100%;max-width:630px;clear:both;line-height:1.7;border-width:0px;border: 0px;font-size:14px;border:0;box-sizing:border-box;" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td><table class="stb-cell-wrap" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align:center;font-size:0;"><div class="stb-left-cell" style="max-width:630px;width:100%!important;margin:0;vertical-align:top;border-collapse:collapse;box-sizing:border-box;font-size:unset;mso-table-lspace:0pt;mso-table-rspace:0pt;-ms-text-size-adjust:100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust:100%;display:inline-block;"><div class="stb-text-box" style="text-align:left;margin:0px;;line-height:1.7;word-break:break-word;font-size:16px;font-family:AppleSDGothic, apple sd gothic neo, noto sans korean, noto sans korean regular, noto sans cjk kr, noto sans cjk, nanum gothic, malgun gothic, dotum, arial, helvetica, MS Gothic, sans-serif!important;;-ms-text-size-adjust: 100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;color:#000000;clear:both;border:0;mso-line-height-rule-rule:exactly;"><table class="stb-text-box-inner" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="width:100%;"><tbody><tr><td style="padding:15px 15px 15px 15px;font-size:16px;line-height:1.7;word-break:break-word;color:#000000;border:0;font-family:AppleSDGothic, apple sd gothic neo, noto sans korean, noto sans korean regular, noto sans cjk kr, noto sans cjk, nanum gothic, malgun gothic, dotum, arial, helvetica, MS Gothic, sans-serif!important;;-ms-text-size-adjust: 100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;width:100%;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'nanum myoungjo', 바탕, batang, 바탕, MS Mincho, serif; font-size: 14px;">2025년 5월 27일 월요일</span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'nanum myoungjo', 바탕, batang, 바탕, MS Mincho, serif; font-size: 14px;">오늘의 노래 : <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oMpqUVpoa88" target="_blank" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 255); font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none;">So far</a></span></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></div><div class="stb-block-outer"><table class="stb-block stb-cols-1" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="overflow:hidden;margin:0px auto;padding:0px;width:100%;max-width:630px;clear:both;line-height:1.7;border-width:0px;border: 0px;font-size:14px;border:0;box-sizing:border-box;" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td><table class="stb-cell-wrap" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align:center;font-size:0;"><table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="mso-table-lspace: 0pt; mso-table-rspace: 0pt;-ms-text-size-adjust: 100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;" align="left" width="100%">  <tbody><tr>    <td style="padding:15px 15px 15px 15px;;border:0;">      <table class="stb-partition" style="width:100%;height: 0;background: none;padding: 0px;border-top-width:1px;border-top-style:solid;border-top-color:#999999;margin:0 0;border-collapse:separate;"></table>    </td>  </tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></div><div class="stb-block-outer"><table class="stb-block stb-cols-1" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="overflow:hidden;margin:0px auto;padding:0px;width:100%;max-width:630px;clear:both;line-height:1.7;border-width:0px;border: 0px;font-size:14px;border:0;box-sizing:border-box;" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td><table class="stb-cell-wrap" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align:center;font-size:0;"><div class="stb-left-cell" style="max-width:630px;width:100%!important;margin:0;vertical-align:top;border-collapse:collapse;box-sizing:border-box;font-size:unset;mso-table-lspace:0pt;mso-table-rspace:0pt;-ms-text-size-adjust:100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust:100%;display:inline-block;"><div class="stb-text-box" style="text-align:left;margin:0px;;line-height:1.7;word-break:break-word;font-size:16px;font-family:AppleSDGothic, apple sd gothic neo, noto sans korean, noto sans korean regular, noto sans cjk kr, noto sans cjk, nanum gothic, malgun gothic, dotum, arial, helvetica, MS Gothic, sans-serif!important;;-ms-text-size-adjust: 100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;color:#000000;clear:both;border:0;mso-line-height-rule-rule:exactly;"><table class="stb-text-box-inner" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="width:100%;"><tbody><tr><td style="padding:15px 15px 15px 15px;font-size:16px;line-height:1.7;word-break:break-word;color:#000000;border:0;font-family:AppleSDGothic, apple sd gothic neo, noto sans korean, noto sans korean regular, noto sans cjk kr, noto sans cjk, nanum gothic, malgun gothic, dotum, arial, helvetica, MS Gothic, sans-serif!important;;-ms-text-size-adjust: 100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;width:100%;"><div><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: 'nanum myoungjo', 바탕, batang, 바탕, MS Mincho, serif;">&nbsp; 더할 나위 없이 충만한 기분. 특별한 일은 없었는데 만족스러운 날이었다. 진료실로 들어가는 발걸음은 2주 만에 가벼워졌고, 긴장을 주는 상황만 아니라면 의자에 앉아 있어도 버틸 수 있었다. 비 갠 하늘은 맑고 구름은 부지런히 하늘을 달렸다. 순간적으로 거센 바람이 불어왔지만 모자를 잡으며 웃어넘길 날씨였다. 도수치료를 받고 병원 근처 단골 두부집에서 점심을 든든하게 챙겨 먹고, 시간에 쫓기지 않고 걷다가 산책하는 고양이를 만나 한참을 바라보다가 카페로 향했다. 밤 파이를 먹으며 창밖을 바라보는데 때마침 <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gv-XKHj0rw" style="font-weight: normal; font-style: normal; text-decoration: none; color: #0000ff;" target="_blank">흘러나온 음악</a>이 좋아서 카운터에서 펜 한 자루를 빌렸다. 이 기분을 남기고 싶어 쓰기 시작한 글이다.</span></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></div><div class="stb-block-outer"><table class="stb-block stb-cols-1" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="overflow:hidden;margin:0px auto;padding:0px;width:100%;max-width:630px;clear:both;line-height:1.7;border-width:0px;border: 0px;font-size:14px;border:0;box-sizing:border-box;" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td><table class="stb-cell-wrap" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align:center;font-size:0;"><div class="stb-left-cell" style="max-width:630px;width:100%!important;margin:0;vertical-align:top;border-collapse:collapse;box-sizing:border-box;font-size:unset;mso-table-lspace:0pt;mso-table-rspace:0pt;-ms-text-size-adjust:100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust:100%;display:inline-block;"><div class="stb-image-box" style="margin:0px;width:100%;box-sizing:border-box;clear:both;;"><table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="width:100%;" aling="center"><tbody><tr><td style="padding:15px 15px 15px 15px;;font-size:0;border:0;line-height:0;width:100%;box-sizing:border-box;"><img src="https://img.stibee.com/61740_2197551_1716808133312140645.jpeg" style="width:100%;display:inline;vertical-align:bottom;max-width:100%;height:auto;border:0;" width="600" class="stb-justify"></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></div><div class="stb-block-outer"><table class="stb-block stb-cols-1" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="overflow:hidden;margin:0px auto;padding:0px;width:100%;max-width:630px;clear:both;line-height:1.7;border-width:0px;border: 0px;font-size:14px;border:0;box-sizing:border-box;" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td><table class="stb-cell-wrap" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align:center;font-size:0;"><div class="stb-left-cell" style="max-width:630px;width:100%!important;margin:0;vertical-align:top;border-collapse:collapse;box-sizing:border-box;font-size:unset;mso-table-lspace:0pt;mso-table-rspace:0pt;-ms-text-size-adjust:100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust:100%;display:inline-block;"><div class="stb-text-box" style="text-align:left;margin:0px;;line-height:1.7;word-break:break-word;font-size:16px;font-family:AppleSDGothic, apple sd gothic neo, noto sans korean, noto sans korean regular, noto sans cjk kr, noto sans cjk, nanum gothic, malgun gothic, dotum, arial, helvetica, MS Gothic, sans-serif!important;;-ms-text-size-adjust: 100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;color:#000000;clear:both;border:0;mso-line-height-rule-rule:exactly;"><table class="stb-text-box-inner" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="width:100%;"><tbody><tr><td style="padding:15px 15px 15px 15px;font-size:16px;line-height:1.7;word-break:break-word;color:#000000;border:0;font-family:AppleSDGothic, apple sd gothic neo, noto sans korean, noto sans korean regular, noto sans cjk kr, noto sans cjk, nanum gothic, malgun gothic, dotum, arial, helvetica, MS Gothic, sans-serif!important;;-ms-text-size-adjust: 100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%;width:100%;"><div><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: 'nanum myoungjo', 바탕, batang, 바탕, MS Mincho, serif; color: #000000;" class="stb-fore-colored">&nbsp;'사실, 나 자주 불안해.'</span></div>
<div><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: 'nanum myoungjo', 바탕, batang, 바탕, MS Mincho, serif; color: #000000;" class="stb-fore-colored">&nbsp;곁에 있어주는 사람들에게 감정을 말로 꺼냈다. 늘 말보다 글이 편해서, 고민이나 감정을 말로 꺼내기까지 시간과 용기가 필요했다. 불안과 외로움은 인정하고 받아들이기 힘든 감정이었다. 여전히 불안은 곁에 있지만, 불안하다고 행복하지 않은 것은 아니며 불안하다고 사랑하지 않는 것도 아니다. 불안해도 타인의 호의를 받고 감사할 수 있으며 기쁘고 신나는 일에 하하 호호 크게 웃을 수 있다. 불안도 하나의 감정일 뿐이라고 인정하고 받아들인 덕분이었다.</span></div>
<div><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: 'nanum myoungjo', 바탕, batang, 바탕, MS Mincho, serif; color: #000000;" class="stb-fore-colored">&nbsp;감정에 좋고 나쁨이란 없다. 기쁨, 절망, 슬픔 모두 동일한 손님이다. (루미의 시를 인용하며) 어떤 감정이 불청객처럼 찾아오다라도 웃으며 맞이할 수 있는 성숙한 사람이고 싶다. 휘둘리지 않고 매몰되지 않고, 다채로운 감정이 주는 크고 작은 깨달음이 한 편의 글이 되길 바란다.</span></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></div><div class="stb-block-outer"><table class="stb-block stb-cols-1" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="overflow:hidden;margin:0px auto;padding:0px;width:100%;max-width:630px;clear:both;line-height:1.7;border-width:0px;border: 0px;font-size:14px;border:0;box-sizing:border-box;" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td><table class="stb-cell-wrap" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align:center;font-size:0;"><div class="stb-left-cell" style="max-width:630px;width:100%!important;margin:0;vertical-align:top;border-collapse:collapse;box-sizing:border-box;font-size:unset;mso-table-lspace:0pt;mso-table-rspace:0pt;-ms-text-size-adjust:100%;-webkit-text-size-adjust:100%;display:inline-block;"><div class="stb-image-box" style="text-align:justify;margin:0px;width:100%;box-sizing:border-box;clear:both;;"><table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="width:100%;" aling="center"><tbody><tr><td style="padding:15px 15px 15px 15px;;text-align:justify;font-size:0;border:0;line-height:0;width:100%;box-sizing:border-box;"><img src="https://img.stibee.com/61740_2197551_1716808166284699154.jpeg" style="width:100%;display:inline;vertical-align:bottom;text-align:justify;max-width:100%;height:auto;border:0;" width="600" class="stb-justify"></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></body></html>
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